For a long time I felt an urge, a need, to put paint down on something, anything. I painted walls in the new houses we moved in to over the years. But then, this wasn’t enough, and I stopped moving around to different places too. A day of feeling cofident, I strode in to an art supply store like I owned the place, and bought a package of different sizes of artist’s paint brushes. And canvases. Small ones, because maybe I wasn’t so confident after all. Little 4×4 ones; after all, the art police wouldn’t find me out so quickly this way, and if I was lucky they’d have bad eyesight and wouldn’t see what I was doing at all.
I had always lusted after friend’s art studios in a room of their home. I always seemed to have a friend or two that were artists. And then I found my way. Abstract art I called what I do, then no one could critique too much if it was abstract…how the heck would they know what I had painted anyway? They’d just see the color. Perfect. I began to put down paint on paper, canvas, wood. I soon realized the extreme soul satisfaction of this activity. I then didn’t care what anyone thought if they should happen to see it.
I read more and more about just starting, even if it’s ugly and bad, and that’s the truth. Once I started, I was off and running. I’ve taken one art class that was in oils, and very structured, a replica of some other artist’s work; this nearly broke my soul. I just couldn’t do it that way. I quit. I stopped completely. Time had a funny way of insisting I get back to it. I did, and on days when I struggle with some sad memory or difficulty in my life, or when I’m just feeling creative, I sit down at a tiny art table I made by placing a 12×35 inch board across two plastic three drawer file cabinets from Target, and I just start.
The hook in really getting me started is the piece below. A cherished plate from Hawaii that broke in my last move. The pieces sat in a corner of my kitchen counter for a year, until my muse told me to take care of it in a better way; to get over the break, and just get started.
Sorry I was unable to leave a comment sooner, but thought writing about this might inspire others.
Just now while again looking at your painting while off line, I wanted to say that you did a great job – probably better than you realize, as if you mix all of those lovely colors together, you end up with mud! The colors are clear and in harmony, and it is a lovely way to deal with shards too precious to throw away.. Perhaps it’s time I dig out those broken fragments from the earthquake and try to put them in some sort of artistic order!
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Oh my!! You have made my day. Thank you so much. Yes, look at those broken fragments!
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Fantastic! I’m back here, after all this time, courtesy of Lisa of Zeebra Designs. What a lovely lady she is! Coincidentally I dropped a favourite cup tonight, but only the handle broke off so I can’t justify using it in this way, but I have always wanted to try painting. Never tried since stick men and total lack of ability at school. You obviously have a much stronger creative streak. It’s great 🙂 🙂
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Welcome back!! I’ve been on a on again off again status for awhile and giving a more routine posting schedule go again. And, yes, Lisa is a lovely lady and fantastic artist!! I’m just having fun with my tubes of paint and brushes and whatever presents itself on a canvas. Thanks for the compliments…those creative streaks float in and out 😊
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Well done you!
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Well, gosh…thanks!
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😊😊
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it made my brain smile trying to figure it out … Kudos Angeline
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And you’ve made my day! I’m truly humbled. Thanks.
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This tale of awakening creative spirits was good to read. A little welcomed insight into the mind of an artist. Thanks for sharing.
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Thanks, Drew. That creative spirit is there in all of us I think; we just have to listen for its call, and then be brave enough to let it out.
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